Over at BlogHer they’re doing a fun “Letter To My Heart” series. It gave me the idea to do my own series right here at Umbrella Blog and combine the project with a fantastic line-up of Guest Contributors. All week, leading up to Valentine’s Day, I’ll feature a different “Letter to My Heart” from my favorite “non-bloggers”.
Today’s guest is returning contributor, Brady (aka BB). Welcome back to Umbrella Blog Brady!
Hi (l)!
How are things? I’ve been meaning to ask whether you mind your nickname or not…it came about because *(l) is how you short hand a Heart to appear on MSN Messenger. Like typing : ) makes a full smiley face appear. It is how Lonna and I have taken to expressing the essence of “heart”to each other in our letters and emails.
Anyway, I’ve been reading this book called “His Majesty’s Dragon” because I’m a self acclaimed nerd as you well know. It’s really good so far and I’m rather enjoying it. So Lonna, Mike and I were all standing in the kitchen when I was discussing my thoughts about this book with Lonna, having just read it herself…It went a little something like this:
Me: I really like the book so far…but it makes me want a dragon so bad it hurts
Lonna: OMG me too!!
Me: I want something that loves me so completely and that will explain mathematics to me and that i can cuddle with when I’m feeling sad or insecure…
Mike: You kind of already have all those things in Lonna…don’t you?
Me: Oh yeah! She can’t fly, but….
But Mike had made a very good point. I DO already have all those things in Lonna! Right down to the explaining of mathematics. And then I realized that this makes me one of the luckiest people I know. And I realized that no matter how much I make you hurt by wanting something I can’t have (i.e. a dragon) it will never equal the bliss you an I experience by having the love she covers us in. It covers us from the top of our head to the tips of our nasty monkey toes. And it is pretty darn rare. Perhaps that’s why I get so touchy about anti same-sex marriage stuff…I know very few straight people who have what we have. Maybe they’re all just jealous?
Anyway, Lonna and I were trying to make some plans for Valentine’s Day and nothing really seems to fit. We don’t do cheesy presents and finding a card that contains the right sentiments without being overtly heterosexual is extremely difficult. So we thought about taking a hike and having dinner but givent the state of my lings right hnow it probably isn’t gong to pan out. Maybe just dinner?
It just seems so hard to express soemthig so big. Doest that make sense? I feel like the 8 years of our love wouldn’t fit in the whole of Seattle, let alone a blox of chocolates. But it seems a little wrong to let it go by unnoticed. Remember that year we gave her a colleciton of all our poetery? Too bad we don’t write poetry anymore. She loved that.
Well Heart, I’ll try to write more often. I seem to take our relationship for granted a lot these days and for that I apologizee.
(l) Always,
Brady
P.S. Do you think I should get a new style of glasses? I’ve been wearl ing these for and awful long time…..
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